Thursday, August 31, 2006

Stop Dreaming, Sing

I want to be a singer.

One day I'm going to write songs
That will inspire millions.
My albums will get
To the top of the charts,
Win lots of awards,
And make me a millionaire.

Will you stop dreaming?
You are a singer sing.


Related article: The Transmuting Fire of Love

There is Only One Life

An Internet friend, who runs a forum I've been participating in, posted a notice that she has come to the conclusion that there are two lives: the "pseudo life of the Internet" and "real life." She's choosing "real" life and saying goodbye to her Internet life. She is therefore no longer going to be manager of that forum. I wished her well in her new ventures.

Is it true that the Internet is a "pseudo life?" Are friendships on the Internet false and only relationships with "real" people (whatever that is) real?

Through sharing my writings on the Internet, I've connected with wonderful people on the Internet. While there have been some people who have had expectations of what I should be like, at least we have connected at the only level that matters - love.

Of course I enjoy relationships with people outside of the Internet. It is these relationships I write about, which I share on the Internet. You could say my "real" life feeds the "virtual" life.

Let's cut to the chase. There is no "real" or "virtual" life, there is only one Life. The One Life does not discriminate against time, space or realities, It pervades all realities. In other words, the One is all in all. Only when you see life as compartments is life "virtual" or "real." I am only living the one Life now and this Life takes many forms, even Internet relationships.

Incidentally, while I was writing this piece on the computer in the library, I saw that my time was running out. I asked the librarian to extend it. She told me my time had already been extended by a "virtual" librarian. God must have done it as He exists in all realities.

God is the Internet.


Related articles: Speaking the One Language; No Other Law but God; Dear God, What is Your Will for Me?; Great Expectations; Only One Self Exists; Through a Glass Darkly; We are Source Codes; WWW dot GOD

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Is it Useful?

Conspiracy theories, don't you just love them?

For years now there have been many theories around Princess Diana's death. I watched a documentary recently where they raised different theories surrounding her death. The conclusion drawn was that it was simply an accident.

Of course you could argue that the programme has an agenda so it's not surprising they would reach that conclusion. Who knows who's funding the programme, etc.

You could also argue that the higher self of Diana had planned the accident as it was part of her spiritual growth.

You could argue anything.

The way I see it, if you find believing in conspiracy theories useful then go for it. I prefer to focus on the truth of Reality that I live in Love.

I don't do conspiracy theories; I do Love.


Related articles: My Friends of Love-Light; If What You're Doing isn't Working

My Friends of Love-Light

"Open thou mine eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of thy law." (Psalm 119: 18)
Right now the dominant paradigm on earth is "cause and effect," meaning your actions "good" or "bad" come back to you. I believe in the paradigm of Grace that transcends cause and effect. This means it doesn't matter what your past actions were you can count on Grace to cancel your debts and start with a clean slate.

Alas, people who believe in Grace seem very much in the minority. Sometimes it feels as if you're not being supported and everyone is against you. That is so not the case. When you go beyond the realm of the senses and see with your spiritual eye, you come to realise how truly supported you are.

There is a wonderful story in the Bible that illustrates how we are all being supported in Spirit. The prophet Elisha and his servant are about to be captured by a Syrian army:

"15": And when the servant of the man of God was risen early, and gone forth, behold, an host compassed the city both with horses and chariots. And his servant said unto him, Alas, my master! how shall we do?

"16": And he answered, Fear not: for they that be with us are more than they that be with them.

"17": And Elisha prayed, and said, LORD, I pray thee, open his eyes, that he may see. And the LORD opened the eyes of the young man; and he saw: and, behold, the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire round about Elisha. (2 Kings 6: 15-17)
As Elisha has an army of light on his side, he knows there is no cause for him to be frightened of the Syrians. His servant doesn't share his view. Elisha has to pray for his servant's spiritual eyes to be open so he can also see the truth of Reality. Elisha asks his army of light to strike the Syrian army with blindness then he leads them right into enemy camp. When the soldiers' sight have been restored they realise they've been captured by their enemies, the Samarians. When the King of Samaria asks if he should have them killed Elisha refuses. Instead, he orders the soldiers to be fed and sent on their way. Elisha is demonstrating Grace in action.

I believe I have innumerable support in the realm of Light all around me. In fact, I live in Light now and always.

Yesterday when I was working on a piece in the library. After I had run out of Internet time I put my name down for more time. When I asked the librarian to extend my time she said it had already been extended, yet neither her nor her colleague had done it.

I woke up in the middle of last night with more ideas streaming through. I pondered on them for a while then I felt like going back to sleep but I was wide awake. I asked my "friends of light" to put me to sleep and wake me up just before 7.30 am. I was soon fast asleep and didn't wake up till 7.20 am.

I have zillions of "friends of Love-Light" who are always supporting me in truth and grace.


Related articles: Trusting in Your Path; Receiving; Grace in Action; Grace - Revisited; Trust in the Many Hands to Make Light Work; Law and Love; My Alarm Clock

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Love Never Ends

As I was riding on the bus I thought about getting off to buy some cream from the supermarket. I also had a feeling I should just go home but I got off anyway and headed for the shop. The supermarket was closed. I decided to take a walk to the local bookshop but it was about to close for the evening. It was then I remembered it was a Bank Holiday and shops close early on that day.

There has to be a reason why I broke my journey, something I am trying to bring to my attention. Then I realised what it was - Love.

Within the human creation, nothing is permanent. Sometimes what you need is present and other times they are not.

There is one thing you can always trust to be always present - Love.

Love never ends.


Here's one of my favourite verses in the Bible.

1 Corinthians 12 • Viewing Chapter 13 • 1 Corinthians 14

1 If I speak in human or angelic tongues, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body [to hardship] that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. 1 Corinthians 13, NIV


1: Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not charity, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal.
2: And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not charity, I am nothing.
3: And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing.
4: Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,
5: Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;
6: Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;
7: Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.
8: Charity never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away.
9: For we know in part, and we prophesy in part.
10: But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away.
11: When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
12: For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.
13: And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity. 1 Corinthians 13, KJV

Speaking the One Language

Apart from China and India, right now it appears English is the most spoken language in the world. I reckon it's a good thing to have a common language we can all relate to and understand.

Those of us who speak English do so using different dialects. There are even different dialects in London. Middle classes in the UK speak in a different accent compared to working classes. Upper classes have their own way of speaking. Then there are the regional accents which give English a different flavour. For instance, people in Newcastle sound like they're speaking a different language. There are immigrants with their own take on the English language. Finally, there are countries like America, Canada, Australia, New Zealand, South Africa and many in the Commonwealth who speak English in their own accents.

The English language symbolises the One Love that we all are. How we express Love depends on our perspectives, i.e. our dialects and accents.

Is there a way we can all speak English with identical accents? Of course there is. Each country could have special schools where everyone is forced to attend elocution lessons so they can speak English the way the Queen does.

In my humble opinion, nothing would be more boring than having everyone speak English in the same way. Perhaps that's the game of life. The moment we all become the same, the game is over. I can't see that happening any time soon though.

In the meantime, let us all enjoy speaking English in a way that's comfortable for us.

Let us all enjoy being Love the way we know how.

With love,

Related articles: The Mighty Us; Fear of Being a Clone; We are Source Codes; Know Thyself


"Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, 'Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain.' And God granted his request." (1 Chronicles 4: 10)
The other day I got chatting to a man in the street. He saw that I was yawning and asked me if I had been working. I said I’d just come from a walk. He said I was too young to experience fatigue. I told him I was a lot older than he was thinking I was. He couldn’t believe my age. He wanted to know what I did to make me look so young. Was it the food I ate or my lifestyle? I said I was mindful of my thoughts. When he persisted I told him I believed in God and it is God who quickens my body. I said I was totally dependent on God.

As humans we are reared to be independent. You’re meant to leave home as quickly as possible and make a life for yourself. (Even animals do the same; mothers teach their young how to be independent). People who are regarded as successful are ones who have worked very hard to achieve financial independence. Self-made people are treated with the utmost respect.

Did the self-made man you admire so much become successful all on his own? Of course not. He had help from his family, friends and associates. Even the energy that quickens his body and his vision had to come from somewhere.

I believe there is only the One Self expressing as the many. Whether you refer to the One as Universal Energy, God, Love, Spirit or Life, there is only the One Source. This means that no matter what you do you’re always dependent on Source. When you believe you’re doing it all by yourself you're deluding yourself.

Why do we keep the illusion of independence going? Well, there is the fear of annihilation for one thing. If there is only the one Self then you haven’t got your own self. Without a self who are you really?

To admit that it is the Self doing the work means you can never take any credit for your achievements. You therefore have to hold fast to the idea that you have a self; that everything you achieved you did independently as that self. And you'll do all you can to maintain your "independence."

That which keeps the illusion going is the ego. Where there is only the one Self, there is no ego. Thus, the ego distracts you from seeing the truth that we are all dependent on the one Universal Energy. The ego gives you a distorted version of reality where you see reality in parts. Your fear makes you crave for independence; and you feed the ego with the illusion of independence. While the ego is getting stronger, you are growing weaker until you die from your ignorance; only to find yourself in another illusion where you end up feeding the ego with more of your delusions.

The truth is fear of annihilation is unwarranted. I can never lose my individuality as Enocia. I am simply gaining a Universal Self being expressed from my perspective. As the Universal Self, I am dependent and independent; I am Source and dependent on Source.

I am totally dependent on God. It is God that quickens my body. I cannot walk without God. I cannot do anything without God. I cannot exist without God.

If this makes me weak and pathetic in your eyes, then so be it.


Related articles: Behind the Scenes - What Keeps Us from Being Love?; Through a Glass Darkly

Monday, August 28, 2006

Being Adorable

Yesterday I had a thought to go for a walk in a particular park. The inner voice said I was going to meet someone I knew. I was to let go of all expectations and just trust in Self to guide my steps. So I let my feet do the walking. I walked among people sitting on the grass and benches listening to a band. Then my feet took me across a bridge where I enjoyed birds frolicking on the pond. Finally, I had the urge to rest on a park bench. The next one I came across had a woman already sitting on it. I sat beside her.

My bench companion was feeding squirrels. She asked me if I was scared of squirrels. I told her I adored them. One squirrel came right up to her hand and took a peanut, cracked it open, and nibbled at it. When he'd finished he was back for more, as was another squirrel and another. The squirrels didn't always eat the peanuts, they stored them in little holes. Each time a squirrel came up to my friend, passers-by would stop and coo at the squirrel. Everyone, adults and children, found them adorable. Then my friend gave me some peanuts so I could share in the fun. One squirrel came up to me and took the peanut from my hand. His little hand actually touched mine. It was magic!

My friend's feeding soon attracted some people who sat behind us. They also had peanuts which they fed the squirrels. Another man who comes to the park just to feed the squirrels joined us. He accused my friend of distracting his favourite squirrel, whom he called "lady"; while the squirrel calls him "Mr Food."

"The squirrel is not yours," I said.
"Yes, she is," Mr Food said. "I love her and she loves me."
"We all love her," I said.
"But our relationship is special."
"Well, if you love somebody set them free."

My friend and I sniggered.

When Mr Food finally attracted "lady's" attention he got her to climb up his shoulder.

"Look at him showing off!" my friend said. "He's treating the squirrel as a circus act."
"More like his trophy lady," I chuckled.

The squirrel scampered as soon as she had been fed. Just to spite Mr Food, my friend attracted all the squirrels to her. It was hilarious watching Mr Food sulk. After a while my friend said she needed to use the toilet. She gave me some peanuts to keep me going. Much to Mr Food's chagrin, I was now the centre of attraction. One squirrel even climbed up the bench, up my arm for a peanut. I asked Mr Food if he wanted some peanuts but he said he had a bagful. I shared some peanuts with passers-by so they could share the joy, while others took photographs. I was having such a ball.

When I'd run out peanuts I felt it was time to leave. On my way I saw my friend approaching. She asked me if she could buy me some coffee at the local kiosk but the kiosk was closed. We tried the park restaurant but it was also closed. We took a walk instead and chatted about how fun it was to be with the squirrels. We also talked about our mutual love for cats.

Later on the bus home I thought about how the squirrels give so much joy simply for being who they are. Similarly, most people love babies, human and animal, for who they are. The moment you grow up people stop seeing you as adorable; or rather, you stop seeing yourself as adorable, unless you are a cat. I'm reminded of a quote I read on a blog recently:

"The cat does not offer services. The cat offers itself. Of course he wants care and shelter. You don't buy love for nothing." - - - William S. Burroughs Cats Me If You Can
I am adorable, just like a cat or squirrel.

While I was waiting for another bus a man walked by. I smiled at him. He said he was Polish and spoke very little English. He said I was beautiful. He pointed to his heart and mine indicating that he loved me. He asked me if he could buy me some coffee but I declined. I blew him a kiss goodbye.

I told you I was adorable just like a cat.

Yesterday I met someone I knew at a park - I met my adorable self.

Am I cute or what?


Sunday, August 27, 2006

Trusting in Your Path

And when he was come nigh, even now at the descent of the mount of Olives, the whole multitude of the disciples began to rejoice and praise God with a loud voice for all the mighty works that they had seen;

Saying, Blessed be the King that cometh in the name of the Lord: peace in heaven, and glory in the highest.

And some of the Pharisees from among the multitude said unto him, Master, rebuke thy disciples.

And he answered and said unto them, I tell you that, if these should hold their peace, the stones would immediately cry out. (Luke 19: 37-40)


"I've come to realise that trust is uncompromising. You either trust or you don't; there's no in between. Trusting in God is trusting in life. When I trust in God, I am a little baby who trusts in his parents. I trust that what my mother is feeding me is good. I may not like the taste but I trust all the same. I am a baby who puts anything I find in my mouth because I trust that my world is perfectly safe." Trust
While many of us might share a belief in Goodness, Love and Unity, each of us is walking a unique "path" that is tailored towards our experiences. This is because we are all unfolding the One Life in different degrees according to our beliefs.

Right now, the dominant paradigm is that if you're sick you have to do something to get better meaning you're either adding to or taking away from yourself. How many parents are willing to trust in the intelligence within the child to restore its health? How can they when they themselves have been programmed? The belief in adding to self has given rise to the modern human that is part human and part artificial intelligence: flesh and contact lenses, spectacles, heart valves, hip replacements, botox, implants, dentures, crowns, hair extensions, plastic and cosmetic surgery, etc.

What if you're someone who is going the natural way by trusting in the Power within for healing? You're seen as going against the grain. Just because majority do not agree with your way does not mean you have to disregard what you feel is right for you? You have to trust in your "path." When you are not swayed by "nay sayers" and trust in your "path" the Universe supports you on your "path." It is the nature of the Universe to support you.

To anyone who finds he's being called to do something that challenges the status quo, I say trust in your path. Know that you are being supported every step of the way.


Related article: The Path of Receiving; The Real Source of Energy; What’s Good for the Goose is Good for the Gander; Going into the Deep; The Cosmic Being

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Love and Let Go

"There are many choices we have based on our beliefs. Every belief is a state of mind that is neither right nor wrong but what makes life more meaningful for you.

Underneath it all is the real You that is devoid of ideas, thoughts, concepts and beliefs, just an emptiness; pure awareness. In awareness there is only isness." There are No Dilemmas, Only Choices
While in the library the other day I stopped to have a chat with a friend who was using the computer.

"The Internet is being very slow," she said.
"Is it? It's working fine for me."
"I can guarantee you that tomorrow the Internet is going to be down," she said. "That is what usually happens when it starts getting slow."
"Oh, stop being so negative!" I walked off.

Although I didn't agree with my friend's perspective, who tends to see the worst case scenario in everything, I felt I had been rather harsh dismissing her like that. Besides, what is "negative" anyway? Only another definition. By the time I went to speak to her she'd already left, so I emailed her and apologised for dismissing her view. I told her she had every right to express her view as she sees it. I also told her this in person the next time I saw her, and we let it go.

The next day the computers were working just fine, just as I had expected.

Based on our beliefs and where we're coming from, we are all always right. I therefore see no point arguing over perspectives or defending my truth. I find it's best to agree to disagree.

I agree to disagree; I love and let go.


Related article: Breaking Out of the Projection Habit; If What You're Doing isn't Working; We are Always Right; There are No Dilemmas, Only Choices

Surrender to Love and Free Will

A friend on another website raised an interesting question in response to my post, Resistance is Futile.

Hmmmmm what does it mean.... "Surrender to the love..."
This is an odd kind of love to be sure
Indeed, how do you surrender to Love when Love is all there is?

Of course Love occupies all space but when you're panicking about something, Love is the last thing on your mind. What you're effectively doing is you're letting appearances influence your decisions. You are not "seeing" the Love that is present.

A while back I had a dialogue with a friend about an alley I used to walk late at night even though my flatmates had been mugged at that same alley. I said it was because I knew that Love is all there is. Where there is Love there is nothing to fear. To be in fear is to dream up something that is not there, or to let yourself be fooled by appearances.

To surrender to Love is to live with the awareness that there is only Love. Then you can choose to express the infinitude of Love. This choosing is free will.

The "You" or "me" expressing free will is not an indivdual self but the Universal/Infinite Love expressing aspects of Self.

The Infinite Us/Love is expressing free will as this article now.


Related articles: Gifts of Love; Breaking Out of the Projection Habit; In the Presence of Love; I'll Be There No Matter What; Projections; Do We Create Our Own Realities?; Walking with Love

All Good is Ever Present

The following is an old but timeless piece that I'm reposting here.


"Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever." (Hebrews 13:8)
We already have access to all good but one reason why it is not manifested is because of our concept of time, that time passes. Did you know that when you realise that time doesn't pass, the experiences that the historical Jesus went through is available right now? What do I mean by this? It has to do with the consciousness of Unity, Us as one with Spirit. The moment you realise this as truth that you are one with Spirit, you’re automatically in the Now where all power and knowledge exist.

The Us is eternal and unchanging. It is the same Us that was being expressed through Jesus as the Father principle. It is the same Us that expresses through anyone who knows his or her Oneness with Spirit. Thus though this personality, Enocia, wasn't present when Jesus walked the earth, I was there in Consciousness as the Us. We spoke through Jesus as the teachings and We expressed through Jesus as the miracles.

Do you see that each and everyone has access to a shortcut? Instead of trying to go it alone, evolving through time and space and trying to be a better person, you can realise your Oneness with Spirit and become one of Us and let Us do the work through you. In order for the resources within Us to be utilised you have to recognise that We are eternal and never change. In the timeless realm is where you will find Us.

You see in the realm of time and space ideas unfold, evolve. If you've gone through academia you will probably be aware that ideas unfold in a dialectical way. You start off with what already exists, thesis; then you bring in an opposing idea, antithesis; and through that a new thesis is formed, synthesis. Someone else will start off a new theory by starting with the last synthesis and so on…. This is how academia, science, inventions evolve for those who are experiencing time/space reality.

Not so with the eternal Us. Truth is infinite and eternal. All is known. All anyone need do is to tap into what already exists and live it. In the realm of Spirit all experiences are available. Just because you didn't live as a particular individual doesn't mean the experience is not available to you now.

I was reading the self-realised saint, Amma's autobiography recently. She spoke of a time when she was so at one with Krishna, she not only manifested his personality, she appeared blue, as the popular image of Krishna depicts. She said that as Krishna she felt neither compassion nor was she lacking in compassion. She said it was when she merged in with the Divine Mother principle of Love that she felt immense Love for humanity. She made the decision to manifest that principle of Love for her work on earth, which wasn’t a popular decision for Krishna devotees.

As you can see, the historical Krishna lived thousands of years ago yet the personality Amma was able to manifest Krishna qualities now. As Krishna she even performed miracles for her followers. Thus everything that's happened in what seems like the human past is alive today as it has always been. You wish to live as Jesus did, merge in with his personality and you can. This is what happens to people who manifest stigmata on their hands and feet, signifying Jesus' wounds when he was crucified.

One thing Amma’s union with the personality aspect demonstrates is the human mind’s penchant for seeing things in parts. Since Amma manifested personalities, she could only experience their character traits; thus Krishna seemed to be filled with wisdom. In truth Universal Energy or Spirit is indivisible, It contains all good.

When I studied Jesus teachings I noticed that he referred to God’s many attributes. He referred to God as the Father: Jesus talked about God being a Spirit, Love, Light, Life. He says “the truth will make you free.” If God is Truth then God has to be Freedom. He says we should be perfect as God is perfect.

Thus God=Love=Spirit=Power=Light=Life=Truth=Freedom=Perfection and much more.

All these many attributes are available right now. You can either tap into them as formless or you can tap into the experiences that Jesus and others have had demonstrating God. Why try to realise God on your own which could take eternity when you can tune into the Us and experience it all now?

Even in the human realm of time and space, there are those who purport to have experienced past lives of the same person. So many people claim to have had past life experiences of Mary the mother of Jesus, Elizabeth 1 and many other historical figures. This is because the memory of each person is held in the collective consciousness of the human mind and you can tap into it and relive that experience as if it was your own.

The Us that is at one with Spirit is analogous to the Borg in the sci-fi series Star Trek. (Humour me please, I’m a big fan). When you first encounter the Borg this is what they always say: “We are the Borg. You will be assimilated. Resistance is futile.” The Borg is a collective that is a hybrid of man and machine, who go around assimilating different species so they can have the best part of each race. Their goal is to attain perfection. Humanoids don’t appreciate the Borg ways of course and wish to retain their individuality and so they are forever at war with the Borg. What I like about the Borg is that it doesn’t matter what sector of the galaxy a Borg ship is, the Borg members are always connected to the Mother-ship and so everyone knows what everyone else is doing. Nothing is hidden. The union with Spirit is a bit like this when all is known. It means that every experience is actually carried out by the One Spirit and not the individual. Any personality that is at one with Spirit has access to infinity itself.

All Good is available right now. You can go do it the hard way by accumulating wisdom, evolving for eternity. Or you can tap into what is available in the timeless realm now with Us.

You choose.

We are One

Friday, August 25, 2006

Resistance is Futile - Part 2

In a previous article called Resistance is Futile, I discussed how important it is for me to surrender to the Self.

How do you surrender?

One way to surrender is by giving up personal sense of self for the Infinite Self. There's another way to look at surrender.

In a previous article I wrote:

Universal consciousness is all or nothing.

When you have a universal consciousness you realise that your actions affect not only the human race but all in the universe because all is one. However, when you have a consciousness of being separate you're like the hundred grains of sand demanding to be recognised as a beach. No one is going to recognise you let alone take you seriously. [...]

If you want your actions to matter, then see all as part of you. Otherwise, you're a lone voice crying in the dark, a NOTHING.

All is One. Universal Consciousness
In other words there is only the Infinite Self at work that cannot be divided. Therefore, at every moment I am working with the entire "Collective." Anything else is a nothing, a figment of the imagination, and to be disregarded.

Just as I was going to open Blogger a sign came up that they were having technical difficulties. I thought "Resistance is futile," meaning it wasn't Blogger providing the services but the Universal Consciousness/Collective doing this work. When I tried to log on again Blogger was working perfectly.

"Resistance is futile" is an excellent affirmation to remind myself that Universal Consciousness is the only Power. Nothing else matters.

We are the Universal Consciousness. You will be assimilated. Resistance is futile.


Related articles: Resistance is Futile; Universal Consciousness; The Mighty Us

Resistance is Futile

"We are the Borg. You will be assimilated. Resistance is futile." The Borg
Yesterday I met up with a friend. We talked about where he feels connected and wants to be, which is not London, yet things are not unfolding fast enough for him to be there. Because he doesn't want to be in London, he finds he can't be fully present where he is now.

I could so relate to my friend's predicament. He got me thinking about resistance versus surrender. There are two types of resistance: fight or flight. This means you are either fighting or trying to run away from where you are; and you are not at peace.

What if you took away your lifestyle, employment, people, places, beliefs, experiences, thoughts, emotions and all forms, what are you left with? Nothing but the essence of who we all are. I call this essence Love, Energy, Self or Source. Put another way, all these things are aspects of Self. Fighting or fleeing the Self is an illusion. You can't fight yourSelf because whatever you are fighting, you already are. You can't run away from yourSelf because wherever you go, you already are. The only solution is to surrender and be the Self and let the Self take you on its journey of eternal being and eternal presence. You end up seeing gems you never knew were present when you were fighting or trying to flee from a situation, which is only an aspect of Self anyway.

I am reminded of a classic episode of StarTrek Voyager called Twisted.

"During a surprise birthday party for Kes at Sandrine's Bar in the holodeck, the U.S.S. Voyager encounters a peculiar spatial distortion wave in space, which surrounds the ship. The phenomenon disables the vessel's main systems, including communications and the warp drive, and also seems to change Voyager's structural layout. As a result, Janeway can't find her way to the Bridge, Torres can't locate Engineering, and everyone in the crew is confused and frustrated."
The crew are desperately trying to understand the phenomenon and why it is transforming the ship. To add to the chaos and uncertainty, members of the crew are disappearing. Even the captain has been affected by the phenomenon; she is semi-conscious and being delirious. The crew do all they can to restore the ship but all their efforts fail. In the end Tuvok, a Vulcan renowned for his logic, advises the crew that as they've already tried everything they know, the only logical option is to do nothing. In other words, "resistance is futile." The crew reluctantly surrenders to the wave phenomenon. The wave passes through without harming anyone or the ship. When the captain regains consciousness she tells the crew the distortion was trying to communicate with them. The crew also discover the phenomenon has downloaded tons of new information into their database. For me, the phenomenon represents the Infinite Self, our essence.

In my own experience it's been an ongoing process of surrender to Self. Years ago I was at a crossroads where everything had fallen apart. I had broken up with my boyfriend and my life wasn't working. I hated living in London yet the only option I seemed to have at the time was moving in with my mother and I didn't want that. All I could think of was being somewhere else. If I couldn't be in another country I would rather be in another reality. I was in deep depression and fantasised about suicide a lot. One day it felt as if someone had switched the light on. (I reckon my mother's prayers had finally kicked in). I suddenly noticed my mother had several books about metaphysics on her bookcase. I couldn't believe it! She said she was going to chuck them out as she didn't find them of any value but something told her to keep them. That was a turning point for me. It was then I realised I was where I needed to be. I embarked on a new journey of discovery into the Self.

I've had many different turning points because the Self is vast beyond measure and is always revealing more of Itself. Does this mean I've lost all my personal desires? Hell no! Instead of losing them, Self is transforming all my human desires into Its desires. For instance, before I used to write in sporadic bursts and had long periods of "writers' block." When I surrendered to Self, it felt like a dam had burst within me; I knew myself to be a never-ending source of wisdom and inspiration. Interestingly enough, I have also fallen madly in love with London. While I'm sure I'll live in other wonderful places at least I know that wherever I live it will always be in Self.

On my way home on the bus last night I noticed two young women and a man having a giggling fit. They were laughing so hard I got the giggles. When the women got off it was then I realised the man wasn't with them, he'd simply been caught in their giggle wave, which he was happy to go along with. That's one way of surrendering to the moment.

Surrender to Self; resistance is futile.


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Thursday, August 24, 2006

It's My Birthday!

What does it really mean to have a birthday? Am I supposed to grow older every day and then die?

I once met this guy who said he wasn't sure what month he was born. All he was told was that there had been a war in the village at the time so his age is a rough estimate, give or take a few months. Another woman I met said in South Korea, where she was from, they add a year to your age to take into account the period a baby spends in his mother's womb. The Korean girl has two different ages: one for the West and another for the East.

I heard my mother speaking to my brother about me yesterday. She told him I always look the same. She said I am one of those people who will never get old. There is a secret to eternal youth and it's not because of any creams, gadgets, or willpower.

The one "I" or Light that we all are, has taken great care chanelling this form I call Enocia. The Light chose my parents, my family, London as my birth place, my gender, race...and the many permutations involved. Why?

From what I can remember from basic physics, when light passes through a prism it refracts into the different colours. Similarly, the family I was born into as well as various experiences I've had are Light being refracted. Refraction gives the Light a kind of resonance that is not only uniquely me but is the appropriate tool or instrument the Light needs to work through.

The way I see it, the Light has clothed Itself as the many forms while still remaining untouched by the forms. Let's say you've been wearing a particular top for years and it's now falling to bits. You wouldn't see yourself as worn out just because your top looks that way. Even if you did, you could easily reverse the process by knowing that you are the Light.

The Light was never born.
The Light can never die.
The Light is incorruptible.
The Light is unchanging.
The Light is boundless.
The Light is eternal.

The Light passing through as each day is always the same. Today is neither older nor younger than the day before or thousands of years ago. Only when one identifies one's self with the refraction does one regard the day as older. And as a day grows older, so do you.

So yes, today is the moment the Light refracted as this form, which I am acknowledging just for fun. In truth, I have no real birth date as I, the Love-Light, was never born.


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Wednesday, August 23, 2006


"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil. It shall be health to thy navel, and marrow to thy bones." (Proverbs 3: 5-8)
A few days ago I went to an exhibition at the National Portrait Gallery to see this year's BP Portrait Award, which I go to see each year. When I got out of the gallery I felt weak. It was as if all my energy had been sucked out from my stomach. The interesting thing is I could feel a back-up energy system kicking in. This "back-up" walked me where I wanted to go next. Later I went to relax at a local bookshop and drank some more Energy from Source.

Yesterday while I was reading on the Web I suddenly felt my eyesight going blurred, as if I was about to have a migraine. I thought I'd already licked this thing! How come it was back? I took time out to relax and feel myself being filled with love which I hoped would dissolve the headache. When my eyesight cleared and I felt better I continued reading but then my eyesight went blurred again and the headache was back in full force. I decided to take the bus into town. I figured I would feel a lot better after the ride. Instead I felt nauseous and my stomach was doing summersaults. All through the journey I prayed frantically "God help me!" as I really didn't want to throw up on the bus. Fortunately, I had a supermarket bag in my rucksack which I pulled out at one point when I felt the urge, but nothing came out.

While the body was going through the drama of sickness, a Voice within was telling all was well. When I got off to change buses I felt this power lifting me up and walking me to the bus stop. As soon as I arrived the bus I wanted was there and I closed my eyes again. I was fighting the nausea while praying for God's assistance. When I finally got off the bus I had no energy. Yet a force walked me home.

One thing that struck me was the notion of "nature abhorring a vacuum" in operation. When I experience what appears to be a vacuum as in no energy, it is automatically filled with Divine Love. Perhaps, pain is a sign of a "vacuum" that needs to be filled with Love.

So this morning my mother asked me to buy some stuff at the local shops. As I was still feeling weak I asked God to do the shopping in me. When I got back and was walking up the few steps it felt like such an effort but the Energy within me got me up and helped me carry the grocery.

Later, I let the "Us" walk me to the bus stop. While I was waiting for my bus a guy approached me. He said, "Don't tell me you don't recognise me."

I recognise his face and his voice but I couldn't remember where I'd met him before. I had a feeling I used to know him at college. He told me about what he's been up to, the roller-coaster of life including marriage, divorce, custody battles, his various jobs, now he's a bus driver. Before he left I asked him to remind me of his name. "Emmanuel."

After he'd gone I chuckled to myself. His name would have to be Emmanuel of course. Emmanuel means "God is with us."

Incidentally, my name, Enocia is inspired from Enoch in the Bible:

"And Enoch walked with God: and he was not; for God took him." (Genesis 5: 24)
It is believed Enoch was translated and never died.

"By faith Enoch was translated that he should not see death; and was not found, because God had translated him: for before his translation he had this testimony, that he pleased God." (Hebrews 11: 5)
What if Enoch was so full of God he could no longer live in the 3rd dimension?

I lean not on my own understanding but on God.
I am filled with God.


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Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Canned Laughter

A long time ago in a galaxy far, far away I went to watch a new situation comedy being produced. At first it was funny to watch until they kept repeating the scenes and expected us to laugh over and over again. It was pure torture. No wonder they use canned laughter; they are a lot less traumatic for the audience, unless the audience is composed of cast members, television enthusiasts or students. Students will go through anything for free entertainment. After we'd been there for about 2 hours with no end in sight we left. I never did see the final product; frankly, I didn't give a damn.

So I was having an inner dialogue with my inner self. The Voice within said something witty then I heard what sounded like laughter, not in the way we laugh but more like a sound that felt like laughter.

"What, is that how you laugh?" I asked.
"No, it is how you laugh."
"What do you mean?" I said.
"This is what your laughter sounds like to Us," the Voice said.

I listened to the sound over and over again. Every time I heard it I felt really good. It actually reminded me of canned laughter, my own inner canned laughter.

I started thinking of the many ways I could use my inner canned laughter. I could have my own inner laughter therapy!

I could even tailor my inner laughter therapy for audience to listen to while watching comedies being produced. They will still laugh at scenes they've watched a thousand times before.

I am now switching on my inner canned laughter.

Hahahaha! Hahahaha! Hahahaha! Hahahaha! Hahahaha! Hahahaha!


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Monday, August 21, 2006

The Path of Receiving

I don't know about you, but everything I've done has had to be earned. Haven't we all? I went through a very competitive education system. In order to be accepted into a "good" secondary school I had to sit an exam and attain the right marks for that school. At secondary school it was tests, tests, more tests, and then end of year exams. If you didn't pass your exams you had to repeat the class; even worse, find yourself either moved from the A-stream to a lower stream or demoted.

At college if you want a good degree you have to work for it. I found writing essays tedious; it was the same old recycling of old ideas. There was no room for innovative thinking. So I did the bare minimum and was an average B+ student. It was only when I wrote my dissertation about talk shows that I aced it, as I could develop my own ideas. I ended up with a 2:1 (Upper Second-class Honours) degree. Still, I got the degree I deserved. Although I got a place to do further post-graduate studies, I never pursued it. I'd had enough of academia.

All aspects of life as we know it is the same. Life gives you what you put into it. If you want to excel then you have to put in whatever work is necessary to achieve that goal. Or so it would seem.

Back in the Real world where all is Love, one's efforts mean Jack Shit. There is no such thing as being deserving of Love. Love doesn't care how much work you've done or whether you believe you are deserving or not, you are loved anyway.

It doesn't matter how long you've been "spiritual" or being studying with some master or teacher, you're loved the same way as someone who is not "spiritual." Put another way, everyone has equal access to all the Love there is. All you have to do is receive the Love-Light, which becomes the idea or thing. The only catch is you have to believe this Love exists.

You want to experience joy, receive joy.
You want to experience unlimited energy, receive energy.
You want to experience health, receive health.

For me it's about learning about this causeless energy. I don't mean the energy is going to teach me anything but about being curious as to what the energy is capable of being. While I was relaxing in a bookshop yesterday afternoon, I could feel myself about to fall asleep. The problem with this bookshop is while you can sit with your feet up and browse to your heart's content; you can drink, eat and be merry; you can treat the place like a social club; you're not allowed to fall asleep. I was fighting the drowsiness but the more I resisted the heavier my eyes became. I thought to myself why not receive Energy that will keep me awake? I did and the next thing I knew I was alert. I had no further thought about sleep.

Last night I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't go back to sleep. I stayed in silence for a while then I pondered on some ideas. After a while I fancied going to sleep but couldn't sleep. So I received the Energy to put me to sleep and wake me up at a certain time. That's exactly what happened.

How do I receive? Here's one game I like to play. In my mind's eye I see a radiant sun. This sun is the substance of the universe, the Soul of all life, the One, Self, the real source of energy. I then imagine rays of light filling me up and pouring through my body and everywhere. So whenever I have a need I only need to look at the "sun" and then receive the sun's rays which is the thing itself.

Life is a game of two paths: the hard path of clawing your way to enlightenment; or the easy path of receiving what is. I know which path I choose to be on.

I am on the path of receiving.


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Saturday, August 19, 2006


On the one hand, words are inadequate to describe the vastness of being.

On the other hand, words are very adequate to express all that I am being.

When I am being joy, I use words to express humour, wit and satire.

When I am being truth, I use words to express the truth as I understand it at that moment.

When I am being myself, I use words to describe my experiences.

Words is one of many tools I use to express myself.

I love words.



In a previous article, I wrote about how frustrating it can be to give and not having anyone willing to receive. I said the way I get round this problem is to create a bottomless instrument such as my blog. This way, I get to experience all the love that I am.

What if someone wants to give to you and you're not open to receive? How do you get round this?

Recently my mother wanted to buy me some sandals. As much as I would have appreciated a new pair, I told her I would rather buy something else with the money she was going to spend. Although she agreed, she didn't seem very happy about my proposal. I had a feeling I should have simply accepted and trusted in the Universe to provide. A few days later my mother presented me with a new pair of sandals as a surprise, and I loved them. She seemed very happy that I was open to receive them.

Yesterday evening I accompanied a friend to the local supermarket where she was doing some grocery shopping. I helped her to carry the basket. She asked me if I wanted some snacks and I wasn't sure. Besides, I didn't feel she had to buy me something just because I was carrying her shopping. I was simply enjoying being with her. She insisted I choose something. I knew it was her way of giving love in her own way so I selected a bag of chocolates, my favourite food, which we gorged on. I even shared some with my mother later.

Last night I had a thought that I was not as open to receive as I thought I was. This morning as I was walking to the library I heard inner voices saying "I love you, Enocia." I was experiencing "Love is all there is" in a tangible form, at least in my head. I asked the Universe to help me receive all the Love there is. I had this vision where I saw what looked like a tunnel that was being blocked by a boulder. I saw the boulder being removed. Then I saw zillions of light particles dancing around me. The Light particles told me they were my "angels" and that I was now free to receive.

Another reason why it's important to be able to receive is because I am helping the giver be the Love that she is.

When I am open to receive love from my mother, I am enabling her to be the Infinite Love that she is.

When I am open to receive excellent services from London Buses, I am enabling London Buses to provide an even better service, and be a better company.

When I am open to receive the best a business has to offer, I am enabling the business to excel.

When I am open to receive perfect health, I am enabling my body to always be in peak condition.

When I am open to receive happiness and fulfilment, I am being my real self that is inexhaustible joy.

Naturally, there's an element of choice as to what I am open to receive. For instance, while I was waiting for my bus, a woman offered me a Christian tract but I declined. She was already doing an excellent job promoting her church to another passenger who was very open. On the bus my seat was in the sun so I swapped for a seat in the shade. I was choosing to receive all the coolness there is.

The bottom line is all is one. What helps one to excel is helping the Universe to excel. This is how we all get to experience more love and light.

I am open to receive all the inexhaustible good the Universe has to offer, at least what I choose to experience.


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Friday, August 18, 2006

Being the Life and Soul of the Party

Soul is the essence of a thing, that which gives a thing its life in whatever form it takes.

All life has the one Soul. On another level there are many souls. You are either being the one Soul or being the many souls.

In the human reality, every experience has a soul. For instance, people who identify themselves as a particular race are being the soul of that race. There was a time when I was so at one with the black soul, I could only interpret life through that soul filter. I felt proud when black people had achieved something, or felt ashamed when black people were involved in something that society frowned upon. Now that I have disconnected from the black soul I no longer have those feelings. While I can still relate to people who have had similar experiences, I don't empathise with someone purely because we have the same skin colour.

There is also a soul for men and women. Again, when I was one with the soul of women, I was very interested in feminism and how women were treated in society. I could bond with women based on our shared "oppressions" and our experiences as women including going through periods, childbirth etc, even though I'd never been a mother. When I disconnected from the soul of women, I stopped empathising with someone purely on the basis of her gender.

Within the corporate world each company has got a soul that you identify with to a certain extent, otherwise you wouldn't have joined the company in the first place. When you stop being the company's soul you find you no longer empathise with the company's vision; it's time to look for a new job.

All groups be they political, religious, philosophical, social, spiritual have their souls. When you are one with the soul of that group, you share the group's beliefs as well as interpreting the world through that soul's filter. When you disconnect from that soul, you find you no longer empathise with the group's vision.

In other words, every aspect of society has a soul. There is even a human soul. It is the human soul that makes us feel compassion for other humans even if you don't know them. Then again, it is the same human soul that makes people get involved in conflicts.

For me, life is about disconnecting from all souls and being the one true Soul that is the essence of all life no matter what forms they take.

Being the Soul is living from within as a feeling that cannot be put into words, nor can it be taught. Soul is simply being; being true to myself.

As I was standing in front of some flowers and admiring their beauty, I could feel myself in them and them in me. I knew that it was "I" the Soul sustaining them. When I sit in silence I am being and feeling the Soul in all.

When you're being the one Soul you start noticing life is mirroring your essence. You find you are the life and soul of the party.

I am Love-Light.
I am Soul.


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Thursday, August 17, 2006

My Love Companion

Each of us is always expressing love in our own way. What if your idea of love is not being received the way you'd like it to be received?

Let's say your you meet a friend who is feeling down. You offer what you believe to be sound spiritual counsel to her. Your friend tells you she's feeling uplifted and ready to face the world with this new outlook. The next day you see your friend and she's still looking miserable. What happened to the uplifted woman you saw 24 hours ago? What did she do with your spiritual counsel? Now you're feeling depressed. Well, as they say, "misery loves company."

It could be that you simply want to love someone with no expectations, but the object of your affection is not open to receive your love. He is even suspicious of your love. What are you going to do? You can't force him to accept your love.

What do you do when you have so much to give and no one wants to receive what you have?

You could pray that you attract those who are open to receive what you have to offer. You could even hope to meet a love companion whom you could pour your presence into, like the relationship the great mystic, Rumi had with his teacher Shams. (See Rumi and Shams)

Or you could create an instrument in which you can pour all that you have to offer, a love companion who is open to receive all your love.

My blogs are my love companions; they are bottomless instruments that accept all the love that I am. It doesn't matter if someone reads what I write as long as I get to express myself. I no longer have the frustration of trying to give to someone and having my love rejected.

My writings and my blogs are aspects of self; it is I giving to myself. And I am always open to receive all that I have to give.

I am my own love companion.
I am my own beloved.


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Come On Guys, Show Us Your True Colours!

In London, it's now become very fashionable for guys to carry handbags. Gone are the heavy duty brief cases; at least they are few and far between. While I was in the City of London, the business capital of London, I noticed a lot of men were either carrying rucksacks or handbags.

I stopped a man with a handbag and asked him if he'd noticed men were no longer carrying suitcases, I mean brief cases. He smiled and said he had.

When I came across one of a few guys (the third I'd spotted in that area) with a brief case, I stopped him to have a chat.

"It's very strange to see you with a briefcase. Do you realise you're the third man I've seen this morning with one. Most guys are either carrying rucksacks or handbags."

"Really?" he said.

"Yes, really. It seems to be a new trend in London."

"I've got a handbag in my briefcase actually," he said.

I rest my case.

So good on you guys. It's about time you had handbags. Us girls have been carrying handbags for years.

Another growing trend is men in pink shirts. Formerly "real" men wouldn't be caught dead in a pink shirt. What's the big deal anyway? So what if a shirt is green, blue or pink? The colour of a shirt doesn't make you more or less than you are. I've been wearing blue tops for years and I still haven't grown a willy.

A few year's back I had this thought that I'd never seen a pink car. I soon started noticing fuchsia taxis, which was very unusual at the time as most taxis are black. In the last two or three years, I've noticed three pink cars. See, it's not such a big deal driving a pink car. Pink is actually a lovely colour.

I would love to see guys driving pink cars and carrying pink handbags. Come on guys, show us your true colours!

Whatever you're doing, be yourself.


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It's Out of My Hands

All is Love.

On my bus home I had a feeling that if I went to a particular bookshop in town I was going to see someone I knew. I was also bursting to have a wee. I decided to catch a bus home instead. When we arrived at the stop where I could change I felt a force holding me back in my seat. The force felt like the centrifugal force that holds you back when you're on a roller coater ride like Nemesis, but this force is a lot gentler. So I stayed on.

I could also feel a gentle tug around my heart as if a magnet was pulling the bus to its destination. I got off outside the bookshop. The first thing I did was to have a pee. Now that that feeling had been taken care of it was time to test whether my other feeling had been spot on. I walked round to see if there was anyone I knew. There was a man I recognised whom I've seen around and chatted to on a few occasions. I had a feeling it wasn't him so I didn't attract his attention. Just as I was leaving and berating myself for sending me on a wild goose chase, albeit I was able to relieve myself, I felt a force pulling me towards the ladies' toilets. But I've just been. I went with the feeling and saw a dear friend.

It was good to see him again. After we'd exchanged hugs, he told me he was waiting for a friend who was in the ladies' and couldn't stop to chat. I asked him if he'd received my email in which I'd asked him if he wanted to meet up. I presumed he hadn't read it. He said he had read it but he hadn't responded because he wasn't sure when he could meet up. No need to give it any further thought, Love has got us together. He introduced me to his friend and then they left. As I had only come to the bookshop to meet him, I was right behind them.

You could argue why would Love arrange for us to meet up for only a few minutes? What has time got to do with anything? Connecting for a few minutes is merely a symbol of our eternal friendship in love.

The encounter was also a perfect opportunity to test my intuition/feeling as opposed to wishful thinking, which feels to me like a magnet.

In fact, the same friend has talked about the same force. Once when we met unexpectedly, he felt himself being drawn to where I was. I also have another "sensitive" friend who has described the same "pulling" force. A while back I wanted to meet up with him but he couldn't decide when. He ended up being magnetised to where I was and we ended up spending time together. Even now, I feel his thoughts whenever he is thinking about me.

Later in the evening, I watched a documentary on television about how the biggest aeroplane in the world was constructed, and the various tests that they carried out. One test was the toilet system where the sewage tank sucks out whatever is in the toilet at great speed. Holy shit! The Love magnet is a lot like that. Hehe.

It's out of my hands. My intention is to love. I trust in Love to arrange the details.


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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Watch Out!

While I was sitting at the bus stop, I saw a blind man get off a bus. I was so mesmerised by the way he was navigating himself with his white stick he nearly poked it in my face. I ducked just in time. The man poked his stick into a baby's pram. You should have seen the look of horror on the baby's mother's face. Priceless!

I once saw a blind man poke his stick up a woman's backside. The woman screeched and leapt several inches in the air. It was pure slapstick, which you'll never see on television.

In both situations, the two blind men were oblivious. Or rather, they were so focused on navigating with their sticks, they didn't realise what was going on around them.

It's interesting how many "seeing" people are blind to the real Light around them.

Be seeing you.


Living as Light

When you turn the light on in a dark room, the whole room is lit up. If you want the room to be a lot brighter you need a light bulb with a higher voltage.

When I first awakened to the Light that I am, I saw myself as a Light that was a, a squillion times brighter than the sun. I've found that my experiences in form have not had the same intensity. It has felt as if I've been experiencing the Light in degrees, rather like replacing a bulb with a lower voltage with that of a higher voltage, which I eventually replace with an even higher voltage...and so it goes on. This is the step by step way of enlightenment. At this rate I will achieve nirvana in 1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 years, give or take a squillion.

Who has time for this nonsense? What is time anyway? If I was meant to crawl up the "evolutionary tree" the Light would not have revealed all of itself. This can only mean that I can experience the totality of the Light now.


Let's say one day you have a moment of pure genius (or madness) and you decide to light every single room in your house with the same voltage as those in a stadium. Your house will not only light the whole street but the whole town. I bet your house will also be visible from outer space. And I'm sure the electricity company is going to love you for it.

To live as the Light I have to see that there is only Light. The Light that I am is constantly sending me light signals. Here's one such example.

A while back I was thinking of having a photograph for one of my blogs. I ended up meeting a photographer who asked if he could take my photograph for an exhibition about 1000 faces of people living and working in the area. I wasn't too keen on the idea but he persuaded me. I figured I could use the picture on my blog. Many months passed and I didn't hear from him. I soon met a young lady who took my photograph which I ended up using on my blog. (See Great Expectations).

A couple of weeks ago I noticed a flyer for the exhibition the man had told me about. When I checked the date I saw it had recently taken place at a local gallery. I was curious to see what my picture looked like. Funny how the notice didn't come to my attention until after the event. So yesterday I looked up on the web to find out when and where the next exhibition was going to take place. Again I'd just missed a local event. Curiouser and curiouser. So I looked up the website where all the photographs were. I saw that he had not included my photograph. I was very relieved as I hadn't been keen on the idea in the first place.

Now it all made sense. Missing the exhibition dates was the Light that I am sending me signals that my photograph had not been included. If my photograph had been included, the Light that I am would have flagged it for my attention.

I live in a universe of Light.
All is Light.


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Tuesday, August 15, 2006


A while back, a friend of a friend, whom I've never met before, emailed me that she wanted to meet up. I said I'll let her know. While I was thinking about emailing her to find out why she wanted to meet up, a man walking beside me suggested I cheer up. I said I was deep in thought. He asked me if I came to the area often as he'd seen me before. I pointed to the library I was going to. He decided to accompany me. He asked me where I lived and I told him. He happened to know my neighbourhood very well, as did I his neighbourhood. He asked me who the lucky guy was, i.e. my boyfriend. I told him I was single but he didn't believe me. He asked if he could call me and arrange to meet up later.

"Why do you want to see me?" I said.
"Because I want to take you out to lunch."

I thanked him but declined his lunch invitation. I knew he was interested in me in a romantic way and I couldn't reciprocate.

Funny how I was thinking about emailing someone about the same topic and my thoughts were manifested right in front of me.

This got me thinking about expectations. Wouldn't it be nice to be with someone just because the other wants to give with no expectations? The problem is in the human experience everything comes at a price.

What do I give you in return?
What do you want in exchange?

Where did we get the concept of giving in exchange for something?

Humans created the system of exchange because they believed there wasn't enough resources to go round, therefore, you had to give what another was lacking in exchange. Now it's about exchanging money.

"Give and you will receive" is a popular belief prevalent within religion and spiritual teachings. You want something from God then you have to serve Him, love Him, worship Him, glorify His name, sing praises to Him in return.

I see God as an impersonal Energy or Intelligence. This Intelligence doesn't care one way or the other whether you are aware of His presence or not because to care is human. Infinite Intelligence is rather like the sun that shines no matter what. The sun will still shine whether you are joyful or sad; you are grateful or ungrateful; you are a saint or sinner. Infinite Intelligence will always be what He is regardless.

Another reason why a concept of exchange could never come from God/Infinite Intelligence is because God lacks nothing. What could One who has everything possibly want in exchange? A God that wants something in exchange is a human idea of God.

What if you realised there was a Source available that could take care of all your needs?. All you need to do is tap into Its inexhaustible riches and It will take any form you have in mind. If you knew you had easy access to everything, wouldn't you simply give with no expectations?

Let's put it another way. If you knew you could heal yourself as and when the need arises would you worry about taking out a medical insurance?

As long as we're still dreaming that there isn't enough resources on earth, we're going to have to play the game of exchange. Give and you will receive what you expect to receive is part of the dream; and what you believe is what you will experience. This is why I need to know what the rules or expectations are before deciding whether I’m willing to play that game.

With love,


Related article: The Real Source of Energy

Monday, August 14, 2006

Satellite or Terrestrial?

Yesterday evening my mother was watching a programme on television. It was raining outside at the time. Soon the channel went off. A notice came up saying there was no signal being received on satellite. She turned off the satellite and watched the programme on BBC1, which is one of the five terrestrial channels in the UK. If the programme was on a satellite channel she would have had to wait until there was a signal.

The human experience is like a terrestrial channel, a good backup system, but not to be relied upon as it is easily depleted. If you want to enjoy unlimited entertainment, you have to tune into satellite or cable.

I am Satellite broadcasting my light everywhere.


The Real Source of Energy

Let's call a spade a spade.

The world as we collectively experience it has one god and it is money. As the saying goes, "money makes the world go round."

Look around you and you'll observe that all is made of money. While there are no Pound notes everywhere they are present in another form. Everything that has been created by humans have to be paid for with money.

The streets were constructed out of labour and materials and this had to be paid for. The construction workers didn't exactly give their services for free, did they?

Cars, buses, all forms of transportation cost money to manufacture and to sustain.

The houses we live in have either been bought or are being rented. The land is owned by someone which costs money.

The clothes I have on were also paid out of money; they didn't come for free.

The food I eat is paid for; accommodation has to be paid for; everything costs money.

You could argue that there are recreational facilities that are free such as walks in the park, enjoying the sea view, hiking, etc. I don't think so. If I want to enjoy a nice walk at Richmond Park, for example, I still have to get there by some kind of transportation, and this costs money. Plus, I have to be in perfect health to enjoy my walk otherwise it's pointless.

This leads to one major factor of the human experience - our health and well-being, which is not free. While we have NHS (National Health Service) in the UK, which provides free health care, it is not free. The NHS is funded out of tax payers' money. Some local health authorities are complaining that there are too little resources for too many people. Some areas have long waiting lists for patients to see a consultant or to have operations. If you want to get excellent medical facilities you either have to go private or have a medical insurance.

Basically, the world as we know it is built on money. If you don't have money you can't access the system. If you're dependent on that system and you don't have any money, you're stuffed.

Is there another way round this system? Of course there is.

There's much being written nowadays about lightworkers who are supposed to be on a mission to bring mankind into the light. If you consider yourself to be a lightworker, you have to stop relying on the system and plug into the real source of energy, which is never-ending Light. A true lightworker is sustained by light and light only.

I've noticed lately that my skin gets really blotchy when I've not had any food. By food, I don't mean food as in material food but light. Now, I find I need to constantly drink from the Source. So I imagine liquid light pouring through my crown and going into all parts of my body. The Light sustains, heals, rejuvenates and regenerates. Within a few moments I feel stronger and my skin clears up. That doesn't mean I don't eat food as we know it. I still do because I still love food, but I know that my real food is Light and it's what I rely on.

Not only is Light my food, It is also my never-ending supply. This means all that I need to make life worthwhile. The Light, that is Infinite Love and Intelligence, goes before me and smoothes things out; arranges for me to meet people I need to meet; supplies ideas; and even influences people to support what I do. In other words, the Light does all the work, I just have to remember to plug in.

I am Love-Light.
I am sustained by Light.


Related articles: The Game of Plugging In; The Real Purpose of the Senses

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